Like i said God touched my heart,what must of took a few seconds changed my life.
The love that flooded my soul, i could not comprehend,it was like i was like i was been consumed by love,it was to much and i could not handle it!
I looked around towards my wife to see if they perhaps noticed something,they were still chatting , never noticed anything. Tears of joy ran down my face, for once in my life i truly experienced love. Not that i have never been loved before,what i think was that my heart was hard and was not open to recieve the love.God had penertrated my heart with His LOVE.
I don't know how to describe it,knowing the person i was and here was someone loving me unconditionally. It was mind bogiling.
Even as i am sharing this i can experience His love,it is Awesome!
God took away the desire from me to drink . I am not saying that drinking is wrong, but the way i did and what it did in my life. I began to read the bible ,night and day,every opportunity i got ,you would find me reading the bible , so much so the it affected my marriage.
I wanted to know this God of the bible, the only way was to read His Word.
When my wife complained, she wanted me to do something or just to communicate,i would say to her can't you see i am doing good, i am not out getting drunk and out in the street,i'm reading the bible.
There still was no communication between us!
I remember one monday morning, before going to work, relligously i would greet my son, he was three years old,i would hug him and tell him how much i loved him.This piticular morning he ignored me,it was like someone was putting a knife through my heart.Why is he ignoring me, what did i do to him? My wife was making lunch for me at the time, i turned towards her and said to her , it is you that is teaching this child to do this, knowing fully well it was not her. The pain was unberable.We ended up in a argument! I went to work.troubled in my heart,i turned to the Lord and asked Him,why? He answered me with a question, how much time do you spend with Jonathan and Sharon. I began to work out how much time i spent with them,it didnot take long.I SPENT NO TIME WITH THEM.Even though i was in the same house with them,i spent literally no time with them.
I expected them to love me but was not giving them any time.I repented and said that i would spend more time with them.
That evening i asked them to forgive me. Promised i would spend more time with them.
Sharon and i began to spend hours ,even talking through the night ,God was busy working in our hearts!We truly began to enjoy one another!
Will continue!
Monday, December 3, 2007
Friday, November 30, 2007
Love Always Forgives! Continued!
Come Saturday..
Sitting in my lounge watching a video, country music,had just come back from work.My wife was sitting on the other side chating to her youngest brother who had come up from Durban.
As i sat there listening to the music,God spoke into my heart, told me He loved me.I had no thought of God,just out of the blue,can't say wether it was audible,the experience was something that i had not experienced in my life.I EXPERIENCED LOVE supernaturaly,spirit, soul and body,all at the same time. As i sat there ....
I FELT like someone was embracing me ,a touch from heaven,changed my life forever.I could not understand how could someone love me somuch,my wife had given up on me, i did not love myself,someone from my family said to my wife how can you live with him and here God was letting me experience His Love. God had other plans for me and my wife.He changed my heart!
Sitting in my lounge watching a video, country music,had just come back from work.My wife was sitting on the other side chating to her youngest brother who had come up from Durban.
As i sat there listening to the music,God spoke into my heart, told me He loved me.I had no thought of God,just out of the blue,can't say wether it was audible,the experience was something that i had not experienced in my life.I EXPERIENCED LOVE supernaturaly,spirit, soul and body,all at the same time. As i sat there ....
I FELT like someone was embracing me ,a touch from heaven,changed my life forever.I could not understand how could someone love me somuch,my wife had given up on me, i did not love myself,someone from my family said to my wife how can you live with him and here God was letting me experience His Love. God had other plans for me and my wife.He changed my heart!
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Love Always Forgives!
Love not only forgives but Forgets wrongs and remembers the good.
This is the love of God,who breathed Himself into us,who has made us in His own image and likeness.
Forgiveness is a choice,God chose to forgive us and and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness,by paying for the price of sin which is death.
We hear people say you can forgive but don't forget.That is not what God wants us to do.
Just as we chose to forgive, we can choose to forget!To overcome the emotions of hurt,and forgiving someone,you have to remind yourself that you have forgiven that person and speak forgiveness over the person, that wronged you.Remember it's a choice you made
The same way we forget the wrongs of others,by making a choice and speaking ,declaring that you choose to forget.
When we sin ,and ask God to forgive us He is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us of all unrighteousness. He chooses to blot out our sin from His rememberance.
When we do this ,there is still the feeling of guilt of the sin,wrong that we have done.
How do we overcome this? The same way we choose to forgive others,not based on our emotions,is the same way we recieve forgiveness.God has given us His Word that he has,all we have to do is recieve it and thank Him.
Having said this,in my own life i have experienced the love of God, our Father.
Some years back,i married a young beautiful lady,whose dream was to have a family that would love and serve God. In actual fact a friend of hers asked her ,what was her dream as a young bride, her answer was ,all i want is for me and my family to serve The Lord.
As our marriage progressed ,i started drinking to be scociaable,which progressed,to where i became an alcoholic!and with that a lot saying and doing wrong things.My wife threatened to leave me ,as she could not take that type of life.Many times i asked her forgiveness ,and promised that i would stop drinking,and the life that went with it.In my heart i sincerely meant it,i made promises i could not keep,there were times that i would stop for six months ,three months , a month ,a week a day and even less.I remember once where i made such a promise and my words were not even cold,one of my brother inlaws walks in ,and puts a bottle of Brandy on the table.He greets me and says lets have a drink, i look at my wife ,i look at him and the bottle and could not resist,with tears running down my wifes face,i still could not resist.
There came a point where she said Paul i can't take this life anymore,I want a devorce,i agreed with her,knowing that i could not keep my promises,even though i loved her.
We made an appointment to see the lawer,this was on a thursday, the appointment was for monday. Come saturday!
This is the love of God,who breathed Himself into us,who has made us in His own image and likeness.
Forgiveness is a choice,God chose to forgive us and and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness,by paying for the price of sin which is death.
We hear people say you can forgive but don't forget.That is not what God wants us to do.
Just as we chose to forgive, we can choose to forget!To overcome the emotions of hurt,and forgiving someone,you have to remind yourself that you have forgiven that person and speak forgiveness over the person, that wronged you.Remember it's a choice you made
The same way we forget the wrongs of others,by making a choice and speaking ,declaring that you choose to forget.
When we sin ,and ask God to forgive us He is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us of all unrighteousness. He chooses to blot out our sin from His rememberance.
When we do this ,there is still the feeling of guilt of the sin,wrong that we have done.
How do we overcome this? The same way we choose to forgive others,not based on our emotions,is the same way we recieve forgiveness.God has given us His Word that he has,all we have to do is recieve it and thank Him.
Having said this,in my own life i have experienced the love of God, our Father.
Some years back,i married a young beautiful lady,whose dream was to have a family that would love and serve God. In actual fact a friend of hers asked her ,what was her dream as a young bride, her answer was ,all i want is for me and my family to serve The Lord.
As our marriage progressed ,i started drinking to be scociaable,which progressed,to where i became an alcoholic!and with that a lot saying and doing wrong things.My wife threatened to leave me ,as she could not take that type of life.Many times i asked her forgiveness ,and promised that i would stop drinking,and the life that went with it.In my heart i sincerely meant it,i made promises i could not keep,there were times that i would stop for six months ,three months , a month ,a week a day and even less.I remember once where i made such a promise and my words were not even cold,one of my brother inlaws walks in ,and puts a bottle of Brandy on the table.He greets me and says lets have a drink, i look at my wife ,i look at him and the bottle and could not resist,with tears running down my wifes face,i still could not resist.
There came a point where she said Paul i can't take this life anymore,I want a devorce,i agreed with her,knowing that i could not keep my promises,even though i loved her.
We made an appointment to see the lawer,this was on a thursday, the appointment was for monday. Come saturday!
Friday, November 23, 2007
God is Love
The love of God is shared abroad in our hearts,with that thought in mind,God has empowered us to Love ( He breathed Himsef into Adam)
To love Him and to love our neighbours as ourself.
God Is LOVE!
Perfect love casts out fear. God has not given us a spirit of fear
Love never fails.
Love is never silent,never sleeps. God watches over His Word to perform it. He neither slumbers or sleeps!
Love is not selfish. God so loved the world that He gave His only Begotten Son,that whosoever
believeth in Him should not perish.
When we put God's word in us , begin to speak His word a miracle is about to happen!
His word is released into the universe and prospers and does not return void unto Him.
God has made us in His image and likeness! Now ye not that you are gods!
God , our Father has intrusted us to manifest his Love. Be fruitful and multiply!
Replenish the Earth!
To love Him and to love our neighbours as ourself.
God Is LOVE!
Perfect love casts out fear. God has not given us a spirit of fear
Love never fails.
Love is never silent,never sleeps. God watches over His Word to perform it. He neither slumbers or sleeps!
Love is not selfish. God so loved the world that He gave His only Begotten Son,that whosoever
believeth in Him should not perish.
When we put God's word in us , begin to speak His word a miracle is about to happen!
His word is released into the universe and prospers and does not return void unto Him.
God has made us in His image and likeness! Now ye not that you are gods!
God , our Father has intrusted us to manifest his Love. Be fruitful and multiply!
Replenish the Earth!
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
The spoken WORD
God breathed Himself into man His creation, and man became a living soul.Man was made in the image and likeness of God.God our creator made us just like Himself, a speaking spirit.In the begining God spoke everthing in to order.When He saw darkness, He did not comment on how dark it was ,instead He spoke to it, to what He wanted it to become.He said let there be light!
What am i saying, God created Adam a speaking spirit, Adam named everthing , the animals, plants etc. he said elephant and it was a elephant.
God created everything by the spoken Word,His Word.
What am i saying, God created Adam a speaking spirit, Adam named everthing , the animals, plants etc. he said elephant and it was a elephant.
God created everything by the spoken Word,His Word.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
The Heart That Touches The Soul
In my busy life of work ,family and church,theres a call in my heart which i believe our Father is touching!
In my heart i sense a pull to touch the souls of man with the love of God.That might come to Know His Love, that surpases all understanding.It does not mean i know all there is to know of the love of God,infact i will admitt i know very little,but that which He has put in my heart to share i would like to do.
I would appreciate comments,thoughts etc.
Where should i start, in the begining. i try to imagine when i look at the beauty of that which he created,including you and i how awsome He is,how commpasionate that he skillfully designed the heavens and the earth.That he created us to love Him and to love one another by breathing Himself into us.
I will continue....
In my heart i sense a pull to touch the souls of man with the love of God.That might come to Know His Love, that surpases all understanding.It does not mean i know all there is to know of the love of God,infact i will admitt i know very little,but that which He has put in my heart to share i would like to do.
I would appreciate comments,thoughts etc.
Where should i start, in the begining. i try to imagine when i look at the beauty of that which he created,including you and i how awsome He is,how commpasionate that he skillfully designed the heavens and the earth.That he created us to love Him and to love one another by breathing Himself into us.
I will continue....
Friday, October 26, 2007
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